So for me, the rhythm of embodiment and learning, it almost always starts with what I would call a “mistake.” Something where I feel like, “Oh, that’s not how I wanted to be doing life, or doing a relationship, or changing, creating a process of change.”
I love this question! We’re actually wild, but we’ve been taught to control these bodies and to lose our natural, organic rhythm of how we relate to the sun and the land around us and our needs and our communities. The first thing that made me think of was “Rhythm Nation” but also “Control” by Janet Jackson. So to me, embodiment is that whole thing of: the tears come, they get pushed down, and then I speak up using my vocal chord magic.
Just from some other state, from the mindfulness or the spirit state, I was able to notice how quickly that happened and then dignify myself by being like, “Hey, that really hurt my feelings.” And I know that from my body. The other day, someone hurt my feelings, and in real time, tears came to my eyes-and my body is great at pushing them down. It actually makes me very uncomfortable right now.” What else could I do under this pressure? And it’s like, “Swim harder, ask for more help, hug people longer.” What are other things I can do? It doesn’t actually comfort me right now. That doesn’t actually recenter me right now. We comfort you, we build you up, we bulk you up, we comfort you.” And then having to be like, “Wait, that’s an old embodiment. I’ve recently been going through a stressful moment of growth, and under pressure, I turn to pizza, I turn to ice cream.
I also think there’s something about embodiment that is how my spirit learns to be under pressure and learns to be in the experience of being a human being. That’s how I know the people I came from, and I carry the relationship of my ancestors through that DNA, through that memory. Lately, I’ve been experiencing myself as: the spirit is what I am, and then the body is how that massive spirit relates to this planet and to others. I love that, and it feels so orderly, so it makes me want to respond with a little chaos.
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